Excruciating Pain: My Fight Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a overcast weekday morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a intense sensation sprang behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid shocks, like electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the discomfort subsided and then returned with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took paracetamol, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The attacks returned repeatedly that fall, and once more in the spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: aura in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-on agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically start with intense discomfort behind a single eye that persists up to three hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 people are affected by the condition, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks typically begin with abrupt, severe pain focused on a single eye that peaks within a short time and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. I have the episodic form, which occurs in periodic cycles; others have continuous cluster headaches, defined by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What unites patients is the intensity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Drinking in her teens, like many causes, made things more intense. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as drunken behavior. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a national hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to organize daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The earliest description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They linked the ailment to an evil entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical records suggest unusual remedies for what modern observers would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a distinct disorder, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially classified by international medical committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key artery which supplies blood to the head. Prominent specialists in treating the condition explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the results of a study for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, published in a major journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.

In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had four operations before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary headache disorders, such as migraine, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which side do signs appear? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But many first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She thinks dentists still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a support line during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring advisor guided them through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack eased.

National guidance on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of well-known individuals.

But leading neurologists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the cycle determines the approach.” Brief bouts with occasional attacks are handled with abortive therapy only. Longer or more severe periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the area of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.

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Gabriella Dominguez
Gabriella Dominguez

A tech journalist and innovation strategist with over a decade of experience covering emerging technologies and digital transformation across Europe.